No more pills

This shorts I got back in 2019 after at the end of my 50 pounds weight lost. Yeah, I gain quite a bit of weight after I retired from racing Ironman and becoming a Dad.  

My last 2 years of racing I was getting burned out, and my health was declining. Part due to a vegan diet experience, other part from just the nature of the job. Training full time is not easy on the body. Anyways, with everything combined I got diagnosed with hypothyroidism in 2014.

Honestly, my diagnosis was a surprise because I really thought a vegan diet would make me healthier, but it was also a fire starter.  I always had this idea of health being about mind, body and soul, and I knew that I was not healthy. 

Fast forward to 2020 when covid-19 started I knew it I had to be at top shape with my health. Therefore I took a deep dive within to find the root of my trauma. Since, trauma is stored in the body, I thought: “accessing the root of my trauma will probably fix my Thyroid issues, because that’s where the trauma is stored in my body”. So, I did what I do best, followed my intuition and focus on the AIP (auto immune protocol, however I mainly did daily BBQs).

The thyroid is located at the throat chakra, and that was were my trauma was stuck. This chakra is related to self expression, therefore in order to heal my soul I needed to be as authentic as possible. That’s when this blog started to take shape, I wrote my book, and became a one man band with 2 YouTube channels. I also added some icing in the cake with a talk show, focus in talking about healing and music. And guess, what? I am off synthroid. It’s been already 3 months. Not only that, my therapist released me last week. Of course I schedule with her next month to discuss this, but boy, this is a big coincidence.

All I can say is, dreams can really guide you. It’s literally the story of my life. No more drugs! Again, weed is not a drug, I also use that for my soul, but not now. Soon.

Punkaste,

Darth Rirou

Versão brasileira, Rirou da Lua:

Episode 1: The dream is true.

My book is all about dreams. There are 2 dreams but I also have quite a few other dreams. Some are day dreams some are night dreams. During the writing process of my I came a cross with a lot of coincidences. Some of those come coincidences have to do with theories that I have never even heard before.

Having said that, I been having this idea of doing a solo sitcom about my spiritual theory. Which is my band, a one man band. A conspiracy of one. The band is where the character, Darth Rirou (me), feels finally whole and worth it.

After I finished writing my book I came acroos with the native American beliefs that dreams can guide a soul. And that we have 3 souls. When I started my music protect, I wanted a band as a trio, because I had 3 major crisis in life. Looking at how my life turned out, that is quite interesting.

Anyways, based on that I started my sitcom, which is basically the rehearsals of my 3 souls. Here is the first episode. Btw it’s all based on a true story. My book.

English.
Portuguese

Punkaste,

Darth Rirou

Pope Francis strikes again…

AND Darth Rirou strikes back!

You know, we are living in crazy times. And to be honest it doesn’t matter which side you are. Covid is giving us the biggest existential crisis in history. I keep saying is existential crisis because, let’s be honest, the shit is litterally hitting the fan. Jabbed or NOT people are getting hit by covid-19, the level of corruption is insane, gain of function research, and we still don’t know where the virus came from. We don’t even know is Epstein killed himself. Reason why I say, the best way to navigate during crisis is with intuition.

Needless to say, it is the land of confusion. On top of that the leader of the biggest religious institution in the world is shaming people.  In 2020, Pope Francis said that covid-19 vaccine hesitant are people with sucicidal tendencies.  Now in 2020-2 he said that getting the vaccine is an act of love, basically shaming the person that choose not to get the vaccine.

Now, that I published my book on the spiritual subject I feel I can really question his statement. How in the universe is denying your soul guidance NOT an act of love? Honestly, a soul guidance in life whether in a form  of intuition, dreams or signs, is in fact the highest form of LOVE. A statement like that is completely out of empathy and compassion.

Not only that, we can clearly see that the status quo is fucked. Therefore, by following the guideness of your soul, you are actually doing an ethical and moral move. Again, how is that NOT an act of LOVE? The worst part is that a lot of people believe it without even listening to the other side of the story. Therefore, his speech makes more harm then good. Lemmy was right when he wrote the song orgasmatron about religion saying “all your love is hate”.

The Pope also said that health care is a moral obligation, and I agree. And in my life experience I found out that health is about mind body and soul. I take really good care about my mind and body. And listen damn well to my soul. Yes, health is no magical pill. Requires time, dedication and love. Makes no sense what the Pope said, and again what about free will?

Anyways, as I usually say; “I am not offended, and I am not, I just really think you, Pope Francis, are an asshole.” I was afraid of putting my story out, in my book, but now I see that is needed. The Roman Catholic Church is an evil institution. By that, I said of Twitter and I say it again, I would to sit face to face with the Pope and talk about mental health.

Punkaste,

Darth Rirou

Note: yesterday January 9th 2021, completed 5 years that I got my soul back on my last ironman. In 2016 I caught my soul back, 5 years later to the date I received the first comment on my book outside the family circle. Coincidence? Maybe however I am beyond grateful to finally be reconnected with my soul. There is more to the day, but it’s in the book.

ARTICLE BELLOW:

https://dailycaller.com/2022/01/10/pope-francis-coronavirus-covid-19-vaccines-not-magical-healing/

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The healing power of anger

Well, I said in my last post that my life js odd. My life is so odd because sometimes I think I am the only person in the planet that believes anger is a good thing. Well, maybe Johnny Rotten is right, anger an energy. I believe it is an energy and a good one. Don’t know about him, I recently got his book so we shall see. But I do believe is an energy and I believe is great if channelled properly.

I mean, I was here in my bean bag thinking: “man, writting a book and launching an album was so healing “. That’s when I realized I used all my anger into something beautiful. Because my book above all is a true love story. It’s raw, but it is. And my album, what can I say? Is what I truly wish is to you go follow your dreams. Just remember, it will be rock and roll.

Anyways, looking at my book and remembering the talk I had in my last podcast with Renata and Mateo. I realized, a lot was left out. I mean details of the battles of the ironmans. Those were golden years. Honestly, the internal battle of wanting to understand why I hated myself were intense. Good thing I like onions because it feel like onions, trauma have layers and layers and crying and crying until you get to the root.

I guess, I internalized my anger to not cry and I got numb, so numb that I couldn’t even feel myself. Well, like my first sponsor (my brother) said in the preface of my book, I choose brutally. I chose pain. That was my way out. I looked in the mirror and said ok, “don’t wanna say it, fine. We will fight like lions in a cage”. It felt like fight club 😁. Well, that’s how I found the root of the cause. It was too long to put in a song so I put in a book, however the first book because I think the details of the battles will be cool to be written.

Anyways, the best thing is that now I know how to feel up the cup in the soul level. You know that quote, right? You can’t pour from an empty cup. Now is like I am living lighter. Floating, instead of caring the world in my back. Sure is how it feels. I can see the difference in my entire life, I mean every body can. Well, spiritual trauma is that. It affects everything because the shit is deep. And the healing came from anger and picking a fight with the mirror. After all I didn’t look good naked.

Odd right? Maybe, I don’t know. Maybe there are way more people like me out there. Who knows. But I think is quite ironic the fact I am a reiki master and fan of anger. Anger is an energy and is a great one to initiate change. Helped me achieve dreams and overcome fears, and to find myself again. Feel whole and reconnect with my true self. There is no better feeling than feeling connected, and that feeling affects your surroundings.

Remember you can’t pour from an empty cup, and yes, today I do look good naked. Sure I look like Chewbacca but a feel like a twinkle twinkle little star. (I hope you are laughing as much as I am). I must say, save my soul with rock and roll and come back with a Philosophy based on anger it’s guite genius or insane. Who knows? Just, don’t mind the bollocks, but isn’t ironic?

Versão brasileira Herbert Richers (Portuguese)

Punkaste!

Darth Rirou

The irony of life

Today, in a rare moment I watched the Megyn Kelly show clip on YouTube got me thinking. Life can be so ironic sometimes.

Right before covid crisis hit us I was starting write my book and do my music protect. Writing my book has always being one of my dreams, but not any dream. A dream from my heart, because I always felt I had something to say, however what I share is complex and deep. At least for me because I can’t explain a highly intuitive person. Now, being that way was never a problem, besides the fact I hated myself for being highly intuitive, until 2020. In 2020 my intuition and my sensitivity went sky high, that I actually saw this whole shit coming. Intuition is one of the reasons I decided not to get vaccinated. Truth is, my life is odd and there is an odd chance of the vaccine having an odd side effect. We are know, we are just not talking about it. Also, as my therapist once said, your intuition have served you well.

Anyways, as former professional triathlete and coach, I can honestly say; that are other way of protecting from a virus. I live that, not only as an athlete but as a Dad. Even Dr Faucci would agree (at least before 2020) that diet, exercise, and sun exposure are the best ways to protect yourself from infectious disease. He said it before. Besides that are other doctors that would agree with that statement.

I understand that choose exercising, sun light, and diet (I mean, eat like you give a fuck), is hard. Not only that, because when your start doing all of this it will require to face yourself. Meaning your soul. That is very hard, I know from experience. Before even thinking about my first ironman, I was smoking 2 packs of cigarettes a day and 260 pounds. And severely depressed. I just hated myself, and to start changing it was hard as fuck. I know from experience.

My point is: we all have choices, and every choice will have an outcome. I guess, 3rd law of newton can be applied: every action have reaction, and both contains some risk. You have to admit, there are risk on both sides, therefore in the end we are talking about faith. Correct? I mean, you can be vaccinated and be healthy and get hit hard with corona virus or not. But also you can be unvaccinated and can get hit hard or not. Now, faith doesn’t mean necessarily faith in God, like most people think. Can easily be faith in yourself, and that’s where intuition comes in. And honestly I think is time to society accept that trusting your intuition and using as compass for life; it is, in fact, a way of living so certainly like science.

I know I am not alone in any of those examples that I mentioned above and yet, we have to see the president of France saying he wants to piss off the unvaccinated. We have to see Pope Francis, the leader of the Catholic church, shaming humans during the biggest mental health crisis in the world. And today we witness a professional athlete being banned from a competition for choosing not to be vaccinated.

Back in 2020 I said, this is an existential crisis becuse it hits us at the core, our health, and health is about mind body and soul. Based on our “leaders” we can clearly see that this is not a healthy society at all. Ironically the only way out of covid is going within.

Btw: where did the virus came from? Did Epstein kill himself?

Punkaste,

Darth Rirou.

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