Is not just because is a conspiracy, that we don’t have goals. I say we, because this conspiracy involves so much. I wasted 33 years of feeling shame, guilt, judgment and fear. It took me 3 innerchild revolutions to figure this out.
Now, I have so much creativity that I need to organize the band. Almost like Ironman training. In fact, now I have a schedule. Because if not the energy gets stuck. However, the more I do the more empowered I feel. So, here it is my conspiracy goals, after all, I am an ironman and I am my own super hero.
You know, we are living in crazy times. And to be honest it doesn’t matter which side you are. Covid is giving us the biggest existential crisis in history. I keep saying is existential crisis because, let’s be honest, the shit is litterally hitting the fan. Jabbed or NOT people are getting hit by covid-19, the level of corruption is insane, gain of function research, and we still don’t know where the virus came from. We don’t even know is Epstein killed himself. Reason why I say, the best way to navigate during crisis is with intuition.
Needless to say, it is the land of confusion. On top of that the leader of the biggest religious institution in the world is shaming people. In 2020, Pope Francis said that covid-19 vaccine hesitant are people with sucicidal tendencies. Now in 2020-2 he said that getting the vaccine is an act of love, basically shaming the person that choose not to get the vaccine.
Now, that I published my book on the spiritual subject I feel I can really question his statement. How in the universe is denying your soul guidance NOT an act of love? Honestly, a soul guidance in life whether in a form of intuition, dreams or signs, is in fact the highest form of LOVE. A statement like that is completely out of empathy and compassion.
Not only that, we can clearly see that the status quo is fucked. Therefore, by following the guideness of your soul, you are actually doing an ethical and moral move. Again, how is that NOT an act of LOVE? The worst part is that a lot of people believe it without even listening to the other side of the story. Therefore, his speech makes more harm then good. Lemmy was right when he wrote the song orgasmatron about religion saying “all your love is hate”.
The Pope also said that health care is a moral obligation, and I agree. And in my life experience I found out that health is about mind body and soul. I take really good care about my mind and body. And listen damn well to my soul. Yes, health is no magical pill. Requires time, dedication and love. Makes no sense what the Pope said, and again what about free will?
Anyways, as I usually say; “I am not offended, and I am not, I just really think you, Pope Francis, are an asshole.” I was afraid of putting my story out, in my book, but now I see that is needed. The Roman Catholic Church is an evil institution. By that, I said of Twitter and I say it again, I would to sit face to face with the Pope and talk about mental health.
Note: yesterday January 9th 2021, completed 5 years that I got my soul back on my last ironman. In 2016 I caught my soul back, 5 years later to the date I received the first comment on my book outside the family circle. Coincidence? Maybe however I am beyond grateful to finally be reconnected with my soul. There is more to the day, but it’s in the book.
Well, I said in my last post that my life js odd. My life is so odd because sometimes I think I am the only person in the planet that believes anger is a good thing. Well, maybe Johnny Rotten is right, anger an energy. I believe it is an energy and a good one. Don’t know about him, I recently got his book so we shall see. But I do believe is an energy and I believe is great if channelled properly.
I mean, I was here in my bean bag thinking: “man, writting a book and launching an album was so healing “. That’s when I realized I used all my anger into something beautiful. Because my book above all is a true love story. It’s raw, but it is. And my album, what can I say? Is what I truly wish is to you go follow your dreams. Just remember, it will be rock and roll.
Anyways, looking at my book and remembering the talk I had in my last podcast with Renata and Mateo. I realized, a lot was left out. I mean details of the battles of the ironmans. Those were golden years. Honestly, the internal battle of wanting to understand why I hated myself were intense. Good thing I like onions because it feel like onions, trauma have layers and layers and crying and crying until you get to the root.
I guess, I internalized my anger to not cry and I got numb, so numb that I couldn’t even feel myself. Well, like my first sponsor (my brother) said in the preface of my book, I choose brutally. I chose pain. That was my way out. I looked in the mirror and said ok, “don’t wanna say it, fine. We will fight like lions in a cage”. It felt like fight club 😁. Well, that’s how I found the root of the cause. It was too long to put in a song so I put in a book, however the first book because I think the details of the battles will be cool to be written.
Anyways, the best thing is that now I know how to feel up the cup in the soul level. You know that quote, right? You can’t pour from an empty cup. Now is like I am living lighter. Floating, instead of caring the world in my back. Sure is how it feels. I can see the difference in my entire life, I mean every body can. Well, spiritual trauma is that. It affects everything because the shit is deep. And the healing came from anger and picking a fight with the mirror. After all I didn’t look good naked.
Odd right? Maybe, I don’t know. Maybe there are way more people like me out there. Who knows. But I think is quite ironic the fact I am a reiki master and fan of anger. Anger is an energy and is a great one to initiate change. Helped me achieve dreams and overcome fears, and to find myself again. Feel whole and reconnect with my true self. There is no better feeling than feeling connected, and that feeling affects your surroundings.
Remember you can’t pour from an empty cup, and yes, today I do look good naked. Sure I look like Chewbacca but a feel like a twinkle twinkle little star. (I hope you are laughing as much as I am). I must say, save my soul with rock and roll and come back with a Philosophy based on anger it’s guite genius or insane. Who knows? Just, don’t mind the bollocks, but isn’t ironic?