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Chapter 5: More human than human

Today,  01/20/2021 is actually the day of Saint Sebastiao, the patron of Rio de Janeiro, my birth place. At first I wanted to launch my book this day, but since I realized my story is way bigger than I thought, I needed more time to finish the book. Now the idea of this blog is actually to talk about spirituality, so I decided to use the date as my first post of 2021.

The crazy thing of all of this, is that after I decided to talk about my depression,  the opportunities of making my point started to showing up at my door.  I mean, from Leo the Great answer my tweet to reading an article where the Pope says that those who are skeptical about the vaccine are suicidal denial. You can read here.

If I am completely honest,  my set back started with what the Pope said, and here it is why. I am skeptical of this vaccine. I mean, people have all the rights in the world of being skeptical with this vaccine. I am not antivax or a conspiracy guy. I am just human! But to be fair, just in my life time alone I learned about bullshit science with the tabacco industry,  with the nutrition industry,  with supplements industry,  and even with some medicine industry. My kids are vaccined, I believe they work. But this one is different in so many ways, specially because every day there is something new to the virus (unless media lies about). I am not the only skeptical, I did a poll with a few of my followers and 100% said they don’t trust this vaccine either. I just want wait a bit and see more results, until I make my decision.  No, am I not suicidal denial,  I had those thoughts before because of what you antecessor Pope said. I don’t anymore,  but I can’t help the fact that I am a sensitive man. Yeah, I am sensitive like a witch, so God save the queen!

Let’s be totally fair here, we have a big mental health crisis. Now, come out and call people suicidal denial for being skeptical, it’s not super smart in a crisis, is it? I can even say is a bit judgmental.  I mean, have you even heard the other side of the story? I think I can prove why I am skeptical. Am I right? Am I wrong?  No one knows!  Because even one of my son’s doctors said “who knows, maybe in 10 years from now we will say, that was not a good idea.” Or maybe, just maybe a few of us. A very few of us do know about it, and then the game is not monopoly. The real game is hunger games.

Right or wrong I am human,  so I would appreciate less judgment and more respect in my belief.  See, the problem is you! And no I never get offended, I just might think you are an asshole, and you don’t fuck with my feelings. Not again, because my #1 rule in my house (mind, body and soul) is the story does not repeat itself. I broke the cycle!

I am more human than human.

My name is Rirou and I want to conquer the world.

Hey brother Christian with your high and mighty errand
Your actions speak so loud I can’t hear a word you’re saying
Hey sister bleeding heart with all of your compassion
Your labors soothe the hurt but can’t assuage temptation

Hey man of science with your perfect rules of measure
Can you improve this place with the data that you gather?
Hey mother mercy can your loins bear fruit forever?
Is your fecundity a trammel or a treasure?And I want to conquer the world
Give all the idiots a brand new religion
Put an end to poverty, uncleanliness and toil
Promote equality in all of my decisions
With a quick wink of the eye
And a “God you must be joking”

Hey mister diplomat with your worldly aspirations
Did you see your children cry when you left them at the station?
Hey moral soldier you’ve got righteous proclamation
And precious tomes to fuel your pulpy conflagrations

And I want to conquer the world
Give all the idiots a brand new religion
Put an end to poverty, uncleanliness and toil
Promote equality in all of my decisionsI want to conquer the world
Expose the culprits and feed them to the children
I’ll do away with air pollution and then I’ll save the whales
We’ll have peace on earth and global communion

I want to conquer the world
I want to conquer the world
I want to conquer the world
I want to conquer the world

Punkaste,

Rirou!

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Chapter 16: Hallowed be thy name

During my life I went through 3 majors transformations. First was the mind, second was the body and third was the soul. By far my favorite one is the soul, because is where my life really started to make sense. This phase started when we got pregnant with Luke, and got really intense after he was born. That is when I started to go deep into my soul.

When Luke was born we spent 84 days in the NICU, and during that time we went to many life changing experiences. The truth there is something magical about been between life and death, something really raw, which I believe is the ultimate human experience. During that time in the NICU I started to realize that everything I ever believed was truth and as a very sensitive person I was able to feel this to the max. For me, that is a true blessing. The funny part is that spirituality has always been my favorite topic to talk about it, but I never talked about it. Why? Because I never felt I had the right to talk, simply because most people already judged me from the get go. I was either considered evil for my music style, or a pothead, or a punk that was radical and against everything, in other words a rebel. I literally felt I had no right to talk about this stuff, which was pass to me since a very young age not to question things.

The first second Luke was born he woke up my soul and my empath “superpowers”. As an empath we literally can feel peoples energy, we know when they are lying, or genuine, or coming from a place of love. Hard to explain, but is true, is like the force in star wars. Luke made me start realizing that everything was connected.

After we left the NICU I did not think twice, I went to do my so dreamed Reiki course and became a Reiki master. Reiki is all about energy, just like your soul. I mean, we are made of energy. I went in search of more since I wanted to put my soul back together. The soul for me is like a mathematical equation, that you go solving throughout your life. After I became a reiki master I started put my soul back together, and that is when I was able to solve many parts of the equation. Which brought me to a conclusion that I was not alone. I have been guided my entire and also blessed in so many levels. Luke is the proof. But why me? Such an unholy man. I mean, that is what I always heard that from all the “holy” people. For years felt like I was cursed. Like I was a magnet for those cruel judgment. Again, as an empath you feel that so intensely.

After a lot of meditation combined with marijuana, which is what I use for spiritual reasons. For me marijuana ampliphies my emotions, and not numb them like many people think. For me, that was super numb, marijuana helps more than we can imagine because it help me see life beyond the trauma. During those meditations I see and feel many things and that is when I realized why not me? Who better then me to tell a real punk story, with a happy ending. That is when I confirmed that was not a curse, it is a blessing.

Again, another blessing. Why? Being able to tell a true story like that is simply everything I ever wanted and challenge the status quo once for all. Now in this blog I won’t ever use the word God for me this word is being misused to cause more abuse in my eyes. Instead, I talk about the punk force because I do believe we have a soul mission. Meaning we all have a personal misson in this life, and some of us have also a collective misson. But my point is, I believe that the real “God” is an energy and is inside of us. Is that sparkle of light, that intuition, that inner voice. When that is combined with love can achieve great things. The issue is, most people look for the outside for answers, because going within is hard as fuck. Stepping in a church, following a book and praying for forgiveness is a lot easier than going within feeling the pain and facing your demons.

Therefore, I stopped being a figugitive but I felt the need to clear my name since I am 40 years old and people keep judging me the same way for 40 years. Even people that knew me since I was a kid, so mine as well use all the labels possible in my favor. Therefore I decided to be the first ever Movitional Pothead to motivate people to look withih for their own answers and find their mission in this life. I hope I don’t end up in a cross!

Ain’t no fucking hero in this life, be your own!

Punkaste,

Rirou

Hallowed by thy name is the second iron maiden song I strated to learn. The number of the beast is the first one I learned, is not up to speed yet, but getting there.

I’m waiting in my cold cell when the bell begins to chime
Reflecting on my past life and it doesn’t have much time
‘Cause at 5 o’clock, they take me to the Gallows Pole
The sands of time for me are running low, yeah! When the priest comes to read me the last rites
I take a look through the bars at the last sights
Of a world that has gone very wrong for me Can it be that there’s some sort of error
Hard to stop the surmounting terror
Is it really the end, not some crazy dream? Somebody please tell me that I’m dreaming
It’s not easy to stop from screaming
The words escape me when I try to speak
Tears flow, but why am I crying
After all I’m not afraid of dying
Don’t I believe that there never is an end As the guards march me out to the courtyard
Somebody cries from a cell “God be with you”
If there’s a God then why has he let me go? As I walk all my life drifts before me
And though the end is near I’m not sorry
Catch my soul, it’s willing to fly away Mark my words, believe my soul lives on
Don’t worry now that I have gone
I’ve gone beyond to seek the truth When you know that your time is close at hand
Maybe then you’ll begin to understand
Life down here is just a strange illusion
Yeah, hallowed be thy name
Yeah, hallowed by thy name
Yeah

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Day 31 of 40 – Thou shalt not judge

Judgment is something Rirou never understood, because the same people that said he was going to burn in hell, were the same people that were being assholes in the collective matrix. For exemple, Rirou lost count on how many times he almost got run over on his Sunday mornings bike ride, by the same people that was telling him he was going to hell. Again how ironic!

Since today is Sunday, and Sunday is Rock and Roll Temple so here it is Rirou favorite black album Metallica song “Holier than thou” :

No more!
The crap rolls out your mouth again
Haven’t changed, your brain is still gelatine
Little whispers circle around your head
Why don’t you worry about yourself instead Who are you? Where ya been? Where ya from?
Gossip is burning on the tip of your tongue
You lie so much you believe yourself
Judge not lest ye be judged yourself Holier than thou
You are
Holier than thou
You are
You know not Before you judge me take a look at you
Can’t you find something better to do
Point the finger, slow to understand
Arrogance and ignorance go hand in hand It’s not who you are, it’s who you know
Others lives are the basis of your own
Burn your bridges and built them back with wealth
Judge not lest ye be judged yourself Holier than thou
You are
Holier than thou
You are
You know not Holier than thou
You are
Holier than thou
You are
You know not
Not!

Thou shalt not judge is the 5th punk rule!

Feel Good,

Rirou

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Day 4 of 40 – Missing church.

Sunday March 15th Rirou woke up and realized he would not be going to church that Sunday. Rirou every Sunday goes for rehearsal with his band, The Midlife Crisis. at the School of Rock Bloomfield. Well, due to corona virus they won’t be playing, and since Rock-it-ology is Rirou’s religion. He will have to miss church for the first time in almost one year.

You see Rirou have a long story with Religion, and one day out of spite he decided that he was going to create one, and he did. And he was thinking which position he would be. Meaning, he couldn’t play Jesus cause he is no Jedi. He could not be a priest because, because he is not that kind of man (you know what I mean). He could not be a Pope because he is not an asshole. All we know is, Rirou watches the world from the dark side of the moon and his history with Religion began long ago…

Somewhere way back in time, when Rirou was about 12 years old, the pope prohibit Iron Maiden from playing in Chile claiming they were satanic. Iron Maiden is Rirou’s favorite band, their music were like a symphony from God for Rirou. When Rirou saw that new on the TV news, he stood up and screamed: “Fucking asshole”. Well, Rirou got in trouble, and he did not understand why, because that Pope was an asshole. Plus he didn’t know why something that brings joy to people was considered evil? That made him mad, and when he got mad he cried. But he was told that boys couldn’t cry, and he needed swallow. He was angry and he couldn’t say it. You know what happens when don’t talk about your feelings and you numb them? Well, that is the perfect recipe for depression.

After, Luke was born Rirou process of reconnecting with his soul, that started in 2013, was speeding up exponentially. It was like his like his life was finally making sense, and his super powers were coming back. The punk was returning, and now he wants to leave his mark.

2020 came along and Rirou have a master plan set up, but he was not ready until that Sunday, that he missed church and went skateboarding in the parking lot. After the skate session a cold shower and a new set of pajamas, Rirou and his wife watched another episode of curb your enthusiasm, after Luke went to bed. On that episode Larry David open a coffee shop out of spite. Well, Rirou got inspired by Larry David and decided to get decide to work in his master plan to Punk the world.

and just like that Rirou’s “evil plot has just started. Rirou was not angry anymore, he was healing. To be continue…

A case of the Monday’s episode 1

One of the things Rirou created in his Religion is a space for artist around the globe, with the Case of the mondays episodes with an interview. The first one is Emilie Pnkmondon, an online radio punk show host. Check her interview: Click Here.

Feel Good,

Rirou

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