Chapter 14: New moon, Piece of Mind.
All the way up to this past new moon I was adjusting a lot of things, because the truth is I was filled with judgments of heaven, fear and shame. 3 simple bad energies but they are strong enough to keep you in the dark. I say this because the truth is my belief system (what I learned as truth – matrix) lied to me my entire life. It was echoing in my mind this over and over again, like this:
-Skateboarding is a crime.
-Rock and roll is evil.
-Marijuana is bad medicine.
-My sense of fashion was bad.
-My attitude was bad.
-My food choice were bad.
-My connection was spiritual practices were witchcraft.
Yeah I was naive and believed that until I was 40 years old. They were all my love, and my love was bad, but isn’t love the best medicine? For years, I was confused but in 2012 things started to change and got super intense in 2020 and I became aware of those energies stringes that held me back and how they affected me.
After this new moon and a thunderstruck moment (ah-ha moment) in therapy, I am finally feel ready. So, in honor of the 38 years of Iron maiden Piece of mind (there is a very special connection in my book with this album me and Luke) album release this day may 16th 1983, I can say I am ready to give the Roman Catholic Church a piece of my mind with Punkaste Witness, you know a bad religion to compete, and go on with my conspiracy of one with the Rock-it-ology Television, which is kind of a Blipi but Punk, teaching kids about skateboarding and rock and roll. I was already doing, but it’s much easier to do without fear, judments and shame. Meaning, out of the darkness and into the light where the energy flows intead of paralyzing you.
Punkaste, light honest and dignity with a sparkling of fuck you! I never wanted more than I could fit it my head. But this looks like a job for me, cause we need a little controversy, and I ready to go where eagles dare…
Chapter 13: Mother’s Day
Happy mother’s day to all mother’s out there and in special to the mother of my kids.
First, I must acknowledge how hard it is to be a mom in the present days. I see it everyday! I mean, the mother’s energy is different than the father for obviously reasons, therefore their brain and physiology weired different, so to keep a balance is much much harder. My wife works from home and I see how hard it is, in between baby phisiological needs, work and how a mom energy (the soul) is wired is very hard work. Like they don’t have time to think! It’s very punk! I belive women are way stonger than men in so many ways!
Second, I am a stay home Dad and my brain is not wired like a mom, to look at details, and believe me is a lot! Specially when I have my days, the days I go back to my scared traumatized innerchild. Yeah, that does not make thinks easier for her, and for any other mom out there, cause you know… There are quite a few traumatized men out there because we were trained not to talk about our feelings. I know I wasn’t, and for me it’s a daily work, is getting better, however I must say, sometimes for her it must feels like that she has 3 kids! I can’t express how grateful I am, because now she can reconize my struggle and just say: go skateboarding or go for a drive with loud music, it’s an incredible! So on top of everything I have to reconize this is as another super power that she has.
Third, I believe we choose our parents, and I can assure Luke and Amber choose the perfect mom for their journey in this life! As of for me, I am just an lucky asshole the won in the life lottery, the lottery that has nothing to do with money and everything to do with love.
Happy Mother’s Day to all Mothers out there, in special to the mother of my kids, you fucking rock! Honestly, you are modern day super hero, that is the only way to describe and only way to reconize all you do for our family. We love you!
Chapter 12: Full Moon
This past full moon the energy was strong but at the same time different. The energy felt like I was releasing so much old shit, like the energy totally change. Like a complete shift. At least for me.
I mean I finally got into the acceptance of my sensitivity. Truth is the moon has always affected me and that used to scared me, a lot. Let’s say, a small fear of the dark. However, at the age of 33 I started to search for this, and things intesified after I became a Luke’s Dad.
This pass full moon everything shift, I mean literally everything. But not because I understand. Actually, about life all I know is I know nothing. All I know is the places I have been, which was a lot, let’s say hell ain’t a bad place to be. Yeah, I have been there too. Anyways, what shift was that I no longer fear my sensitivity, instead I rock it.
The best part of all is that I was able to teach Luke not to fear that. I mean, this full moon he felt a lot, he was crying for an hour. Similar to me as a kid, but on that time, I was told boys didn’t cry, oh well, shit happens! So, I took him out side to see the moon, feel the energy, meditate, small reiki session,a talk and music with Bob Marley (me singing). He finally stopped crying right away and slept.
That was a great feeling knowing that the history doesn’t need to repeat itself. My kids won’t fear their sensitivity, I know that because at his age I used to dream about going into a really dark place (that is what judgement do). A place I was small as an ant, Luke wakes up and tells me he dreamed with sun and fans. I make sure I ask him every what was dreams with. That for me is a huge win in the parenting territory for me, because the truth is if I have any talent in this life being a Dad is definitely one.
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