A philosophical band

Back in 2012 on my birthday, June 21st I received my first reiki session ever, which change my life forever. In fact, that day was the kick off of my way out of depression, that lead to founding this philosophical band in 2020: Rock-it-ology. With the launching of my first horrible cover, I feel safe enough to talk about the philosophy behind the band. Meaning the roots of this band against depression.

The difference between us, humans, and other animals is consciousness, which for me means we know we have a soul. Deep in the end we know. Or maybe we are alines to this planet. Either way, is just hard sometimes to stop and think about due to society fast life style. Religion also makes it hard because it sufocates us creating a fear of listening to our own soul (long story that I tell in my book Punkaste the book of revelations). When you combine both it becomes a perfect storm. After all, judgment blocks creativity, therefore how can we create a new world, (better hopefully) with so much judgment? Nearly impossible. I refer world as inner world, which reflects on the outer world. Reason why the first commandment of Rock-it-ology is thou shall not be an asshole with thyself.

Anyways, the great brazilian medium Chico Xavier in an interview once said that kids with special needs, they come back to finish learning what they need to learn from an interrupted past life. Interrupted life you meaning suicide or something similar. Having said that, Luke and I have a deep connection, and we can feel what each other are feeling. Not only that, but we often communicate telepathically and in astral travels. I mean, I could write a book just about those experiences. Anyways, in one of my experiences Luke told me: “if you wanna raise awareness for me, do it for depression”. This happened about 1 year before I watched the interview of Chico Xavier and 1 month after I joined school of rock.

I believe we choose our parents, and the truth is, Luke knew it about my story with depression from the womb, from our conversations. Not only our conversations, but also wife and I talks, because I had just went through one of my biggest crisis. I was doing a lot of therapy on that period and on the 3rd month of the pregnancy I decided to get a guitar. I wanted to get the guitar to learn how to play my favorite songs for him. Songs that guided me when I had nothing to hold on too. Songs that guided me when the only option I had was faith. Faith that I could find a solution other than suicide, after all an Iron maiden song thought me that sucicide was not the solution for my problems. Music helped me when all I had was a dream and following this dream was keeping me alive. Music that helped me choose following a dream over indirect suicide.

Well, I saw the signs, I heard the calling and when you hear the calling, you got to get it underway. One day listening to Shake your foundations by ac/dc with Luke the idea came up: A philosophical band. So I started working to become a one man band, but I must say it was not easy. I had a lot of fear, and fear leads to anger. Well, anger is an energy, so what I did with my anger was learn the drums. I mean, I was already learning the guitar after I finally moved on from my childhood trauma (caused by the roman catholic church); I played the bass in school for a bit, so I just needed the drums. But I was still afraid of being evil from my love for rock and roll. Fear inflicted by the Roman Catholic Church. Specially with the words of Pope Francis about the covid-19 vaccine back in 2021. A month later his statement I got the drums and used my anger to learn and finally became a one man band!

Rock-it-ology a philosophical band against depression. Oh, Pope Francis: FUCK YOU! Now, let’s ROCK! Subscribe to Punkaste TV and stay tuned for new songs and more horrible covers.

Do what you want, I know I did. Just remember, what you do in this life echoes in the eternity. And if you have no idea where to start, just listen to your dreams, the dreams of your heart.

Darth Rirou

Anyways, here we are.

Punkaste,

Darth Rirou

School of rock the only school, after high school, that I attended longer than a year and a half. Next month I not only turn 41 but I will complete 2 years in the school of rock. The truth is I tried so many times to attended college, but it was too much noise in my head. I couldn’t concentrate, different than school of rock that quites mind and I can focus, therefore I am no longer the problem child. However, in the eyes of many I am insane oh well, who gives a shit? Because between depress and insane, I choose insanity. Rock and roll ain’t no noise pollution, no doubt about, should be actually called spiritual practice. However, it is a long way to the top if you wanna Rock and Roll, but if get the chance is all or nothing. Life lessons inspired by AC/DC and Pennywise.

Chapter 6: as wicked

For years I believe I was doom for a life of surfering and pain. For real, was a feeling that I couldn’t enjoy life, and if I did I would be punished. Everything that gave me joy was going to be the end of the world. Like, everything was my fault. Heavy metal thought me that the easy way out, ending life, was not an option. 

Yes, it’s true, the feeling was that I was wicked. Like in my dreams is it was always there,  demons faces saying I couldn’t enjoy life. I didn’t know what those demons were until I picked up the guitar to play at 39 years old. Not only that, it only started to make sense on my 40th birthday! That’s when I realized I was battling my own existence.

At age of 39 is when I told my wife, I wanted to be the one who stays home with the kids and learn music. Not only because I didn’t want to work. I mean I don’t want to work, because the truth I can’t have a boss. I think from all the bosses that I had, there is a very few that I didn’t say fuck off. Me out there is a menace to society. It’s true, cause I have an attitude and I know how to use it, like the guy from office space.  The scene where the guy from office space,  says fuck off and got promoted actually happened in my life a few times. Or that scene with George Costanza, when he does everything the opposite way. Anyways,  I said I want to stay home and say fuck you to the Pope and rock. I also wanted to stay home mostly because Luke is as sensitive, if not more than I am, and now Amber. She is also super sensitive. 

Scaping hell (depression) is about learning about my sensitivity and using, and as I do that I want to teach my kids how to use their strength in life, after all my sensitivity is my strength. This way the story won’t repeat itself. The crazy thing is as a sensitive person I became very angry inside due to not exploring my sensitivity,  and swallowing my feelings. Didn’t look like I was an angry person because like the movie Anger Management he says there are 2 kinds of people: the one who explodes and the one who listened quietly day after day. Well, I am/was the one who listened day after day. Felt like I was grounded for 33 years.

Hell and fire was spawned to be released and that’s when the other day I made the video of saying fuck you to the Pope. As I released all this anger in form of art I noticed that things actually started to workout in my life, and the paranoia is gone. Things are no longer heavy and the energy is flowing. Not only that, by doing this, it creates a positive effect in the people around me, my family. Maybe not the devoted catholics since my story make them uncomfortable, but it’s what they say, life begins at the end of the confort zone.

Now I planned to release my first kids song in portuguese this week, however since we are moving (we got a house, see how choosing love/joy things workout?), I decided to wait and record the video in the new house. I believe this will have a much deeper meaning. Because the reality is, on January 20th,  Saint Sebastian day the Padron of my hometown (Rio de Janeiro,  Brasil) we bought our first home. That day was when the world turned around for me, that day was the day I realized I was not doomed, and I finally found my place under the sun. Yeah, I escaped hell, and it felt like a slapt in the face of destiny. Well, maybe not a slapt, but more like a mooning to destiny. I always loved mooning LOL. 

Punkaste,

Rirou

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