Truth is, when I decided to write my book one of my motivation was so that parents could possibly understand their misfit child. But I also wanted to motivate people to follow their dreams, however is not any dream.
Let’s be honest, I am no Tony Ribbons, cause I am no guru. I am not a Dalai Lama, meaning I am not a monk. I am no priest. Neither I am a hero, I just like to keep it real. Having said that I am good at some things when it comes to all that: Attitude!
But what is my attitude? This is no joke. My book is literally about dreams, like real dreams that actually had. Meaning, those dreams weren’t about money or fame, they were real vivid dreams that I decided to follow and that stated opening doors in my life. What I am trying to say is that the attitude is of doing even with all odds against me.
Truth being said by, in theory going crazy, and deciding to follow a dream, lead me to connect a bunch of dots in my life. Gave purpose to my pain, and made me realize that the native Americans were right in so many things. One of them is the theory that dreams can guide or save someones soul.
Nobody really understands a dream, and maybe a dream is not meant to be understood, but is meant to be followed. I honestly believe if the dreams are from your heart, you cannot go wrong. Therefore Rock your boat, life is about following your dreams….
Well, I said in my last post that my life js odd. My life is so odd because sometimes I think I am the only person in the planet that believes anger is a good thing. Well, maybe Johnny Rotten is right, anger an energy. I believe it is an energy and a good one. Don’t know about him, I recently got his book so we shall see. But I do believe is an energy and I believe is great if channelled properly.
I mean, I was here in my bean bag thinking: “man, writting a book and launching an album was so healing “. That’s when I realized I used all my anger into something beautiful. Because my book above all is a true love story. It’s raw, but it is. And my album, what can I say? Is what I truly wish is to you go follow your dreams. Just remember, it will be rock and roll.
Anyways, looking at my book and remembering the talk I had in my last podcast with Renata and Mateo. I realized, a lot was left out. I mean details of the battles of the ironmans. Those were golden years. Honestly, the internal battle of wanting to understand why I hated myself were intense. Good thing I like onions because it feel like onions, trauma have layers and layers and crying and crying until you get to the root.
I guess, I internalized my anger to not cry and I got numb, so numb that I couldn’t even feel myself. Well, like my first sponsor (my brother) said in the preface of my book, I choose brutally. I chose pain. That was my way out. I looked in the mirror and said ok, “don’t wanna say it, fine. We will fight like lions in a cage”. It felt like fight club 😁. Well, that’s how I found the root of the cause. It was too long to put in a song so I put in a book, however the first book because I think the details of the battles will be cool to be written.
Anyways, the best thing is that now I know how to feel up the cup in the soul level. You know that quote, right? You can’t pour from an empty cup. Now is like I am living lighter. Floating, instead of caring the world in my back. Sure is how it feels. I can see the difference in my entire life, I mean every body can. Well, spiritual trauma is that. It affects everything because the shit is deep. And the healing came from anger and picking a fight with the mirror. After all I didn’t look good naked.
Odd right? Maybe, I don’t know. Maybe there are way more people like me out there. Who knows. But I think is quite ironic the fact I am a reiki master and fan of anger. Anger is an energy and is a great one to initiate change. Helped me achieve dreams and overcome fears, and to find myself again. Feel whole and reconnect with my true self. There is no better feeling than feeling connected, and that feeling affects your surroundings.
Remember you can’t pour from an empty cup, and yes, today I do look good naked. Sure I look like Chewbacca but a feel like a twinkle twinkle little star. (I hope you are laughing as much as I am). I must say, save my soul with rock and roll and come back with a Philosophy based on anger it’s guite genius or insane. Who knows? Just, don’t mind the bollocks, but isn’t ironic?
Fatherhood Rocks: So, you just made your very first record, how does it feel?
Darth Rirou: Wonderful because it is literally a dream come true. A childhood dream.
FR:A childhood dream, what do you mean by that?
DR: Yes, it is kind of a long story but learning how to rock and make music was a dream of mine since I was 7 years old. Never had the balls to pursue. I mean I had a band in high school but nothing serious.
FR: Who is this album for?
DR: Well, it’s for kids from around the ages of 5 to 12. For me those are the ages that usually shape your purpose in life. Especially 9, 10, 12 years old things really start to change. Was right around that time my depression started to kick in. This album is also for any adult healing their inner child, I mean I believe is great for anyone working on their traumas and fears. Certainly it is for me.
FR: Why are you a myth?
DR: Well first when I left the Royal Caribbean cruise some friends of friends in Brasil were saying I jumped from the boat and swam to shore, in order to escape. Second we gonna find out on halloween 2021 *laughs*
FR: What are the songs about?
DR: Everysong has a meaning but the whole album is inspired by my kids and what I want to pass on to them.
FR: What was the hardest part?
DR: Facing my fears and hearing myself. It’s always weird at first.
FR: A music inspiration for you?
DR:Lemmy Kilmister, in fact the idea of Rock-it-ology comes from his song… “Rock it… it ain’t no crime.”