Chapter 8: God hate us all!

I should have said long time ago. I have been holding for 33 years, well maybe more since I was baptize without consent at 3 months old, and that cause me a lot of issues. But it’s 2020 and mars is in retrograde, what better time then now to put it all out? I mean, mars the God of war, what better time than pick a war with Religion? Time is here, the time is now!

Now, let’s go to the by parts. I heard my entire life, that I was going to hell for listening to metal/punk rock. Yes, even in 2020 I heard it. Anyways, I have always loved the sound of a distorted guitar, since a very young age. Something that started when I was around 3 years old when I fell in love with iron maiden. After that my story with Religion and their so called God just started to get really complicated. I got angry because I loved the music, however according to them my LOVE for music was going to gonna make my soul burn for eternity.

On top of that I was having trouble emotionally, the old story of “Boys don’t cry”, and as I kid I cried a lot, until I learned to not show my emotions, around 7 years old. Well that became a perfect mind fuck because I simply stopped expressing them and became numb. For years, I debated my own existence. I have had many suicidal thoughts, I hit myself in the head many times, but the “devils music” was the only thing that kept me going. I can honestly say that my LOVE for music is the reason I am here today writing this blog post. I mean, the shit is deep but so deep that I am finally putting into a book, me and my ghost writer.

Now, how come something that brings joy and love to someone to a point that can save his life, can be evil? At the same time, how can something that is suppose to be about love, unity as what Religion claims as God is, can so exclusive and conditional? Makes no sense to me, at least now that I am 40 years old with a child and a second one coming and 16 years of therapy. But my inner child did not know that. He believed in the grown ups, that were telling him that hell was waiting for me.

I believe in love and unity after all we are all humans and we all have to obey by the law of the universe. Yeah, love is love but I must say I draw the line on pedophilia, that is pure evil. Which by the way is Religion biggest talent. Now, my son likes AC/DC as well and he loves fast and loud songs and to add he has a wheelchair: What that has to do with this? Simple, Religious buildings are not require follow ADA laws, meaning besides not paying taxes they do not need to accessible. That is not love, that is hate and separation.

You may say I am the devil, I wouldn’t say no. However, I am not the enemy, and no I am not the anti-Christ, and if you asked me I would say that he existed, and probably was one of the greatest punk. Some theories says he used cannabis oil to make some of his miracles which makes even more punk. He knew it about love, so did Buddha and many others. However, they are not here to fix this shit.

My inner kid learned to suppress his emotions and after a lot of work to unlearn that, now is time to heal my inner child. My healing is to play and sing all my “Religious” song, create punk rock song for kids, and use the devils lettuce (marijuana) to help my healing. Because I don’t want to be angry anymore, neither pass this to my kids, the cycle needs to break. Like I heard before “Trauma is not my fault, however healing is your responsibility.” That is why I separate both channels, where “Rock-it-ology” is where I teach kids about punk rock and; “Dad is a punk” where my inner child plays my favorite Religious songs but now the air guitar is a real one! Like I said before, if I am going to hell mine as well be first class!

By the way, Religion owes me around 50000 for therapy, but is not about money. It’s about my soul, and protecting my children from child abuse.

Punkaste,

Rirou

Chapter tittle inspired by Slayer album “God hates us all” and here is my favorite song from that album and the lyrics.

Drones since the dawn of time
Compelled to live your sheltered lives
Not once has anyone ever seen
Such a rise of pure hypocrisy
I’ll instigate I’ll free your mind
I’ll show you what I’ve known all this time God hates us all, God hates us all
You know it’s true God hates this place
You know it’s true he hates this race Homicide-suicide
Hate heals, you should try it sometime
Strive for peace with acts of war
The beauty of death we all adore
I have no faith distracting me
I know why your prayers will never be answeredGod hates us all, God hates us all
God hates us all, God hates us all
Yeah, he fuckin’ hates me

Pessimist, terrorist targeting the next mark
Global chaos feeding on hysteria
Cut throat, slit your wrist, shoot you in the back fair game
Drug abuse, self abuse searching for the next high
Sounds a lot like hell is spreading all the time
I’m waiting for the day the whole world fucking diesI never said I wanted to be God’s disciple
I’ll never be the one to blindly follow

Man made virus infecting the world
Self-destruct human time bomb
What if there is no God would you think the fuckin’ same
Wasting your life in a leap of blind faith
Wake the fuck up can’t ignore what I say
I got my own philosophyI hate everyone equally
You can’t tear that out of me
No segregation separation
Just me in my world of enemies

I never said I wanted to be God’s disciple
I’ll never be the one to blindly follow
I’ll never be the one to bear the cross-disciple

I reject this fuckin’ race
I despise this fuckin’ placeI reject this fuckin’ race
I despise this fuckin’ placeI reject this fuckin’ race
I despise this fuckin’ placeI reject this fuckin’ race
I despise this fuckin’ place

Chapter 6: “I have no belief, but I believe I am walking contradiction…”

Well, we that was how we started our NICU journey. Looking back at my life I could clearly see that I went to 2 big transformations which all of them had a piece of spirituality. The first one was a mental transformation back in 2003 when I decided to start fighting depression, and I started yoga back then. The second one was a body transformation that started back in 2012, that is when I started receiving Reiki. When we got pregnant my spiritual awakening just grew exponentially. In every transformation I went through things get pretty intense at first, specially if is a radical one. They get intense because you need to destroy the old in order to build the new. To be honest, that is the only way to do, otherwise you will never change. If you wanna change you need to be Roots and Radical.

In the NICU the feelings were raw an intense, that push all your limits above and beyond. Those are real human emotions and super intense, you literally go from 0 to 100 is seconds. Anyways, for me, inclusion starts at home, so my wife and I pretty much moved into the room that the hospital provide for families that lived far: The Conine House. And that is where we lived for the next 84 days, after all we are a family, we are all in this together. My mother-in-law stayed at home with Bolt (our dog) that did not leave Luke’s room until we were back home 84 days later. Honestly, he only left to go outside and then back to his room. Crazy!

During the NICU time I heard all kind of things from Doctors. I was scared and confused, but somehow I knew in my heart that Luke was okay. I was so overwhelmed with everything around me. So, I had to slow down. I started to meditate even more, specially next to Luke with lots of mental talks with him. I started to receive Reiki every time I could, and I started to go to Reiki circles in the hospital (super cool that the hospital have a Reiki Circle). I also restarted practicing yoga own my own in the Conine house in the early AM before crossing the street to see Luke wake up. My goal was to be strong spiritually so I could help Luke, and be there for him. I told Luke I couldn’t stay there 24/7 there, but I left the Chewbacca mask next to his bed, so he knew he was not alone.

With time everything started to make sense to me. Honestly, the way it felt was when Luke was born he came with so much light that it blind me for awhile. That being said, as the days went by in the NICU I started to see again but much much more clearly, and things started to make sense, and it was really ironic. Once I heard that irony is the face of God, and as I look to my life is pure irony, like I am literally walking in contradiction. You doubt? let me tell you:

  1. I was a sensitive boy that cried a lot, but at the same time I love heavy metal. I heard my entire life, how I could be so zen and listen to metal?
  2. I am metal head that loves punk rock, usually those 2 don’t match. I hear all the time, you are a punk that likes slayer?Yeah, I fucking love slayer! I also love the dark side of things, because they are real and raw.
  3. I feel I have a really strong spirituality, (intuition, deja-vu etc). I honestly feel that the universe and I have a super strong connection (its a huge story). Truth being said, up to now my feelings were 99.9% of the time right, it’s just hard to trust them because of what I learned. Yet, I don’t believe in God because I hate religion (Religion is simply exclusive, like a box or an aquarium). However, I believe in the Force, the life force that bind us together because for me it’s all connected.
  4. I was a pro athlete that didn’t want to take performance enhancing drugs (I always like weed but weed is not a drug). Yeah, don’t pretend you don’t know, 90% or more of the athletes take something. Even amateurs. Anyways, I was racing for me, because I had a purpose for doing 18 fucking ironmans. I was facing one demon at the time on those races, and that is when I learned that the dark side is your friend. I always loved the dark side, and as a punk I love to face them. After all I love challenging the status quo, like I was born for that!
  5. I always said that hell was a good place. I mean, think about it: Tons of beer, weed, rock and roll for eternity? Where do I sign up? and I think most of my friends will be there, so hell here I go!
  6. In school I didn’t want to cheat, and I didn’t like to study either. That is why I flunk 3 times. I am not perfect, I did cheat a few times but mostly on group work, where some of my friends saved me. But in general, I did try to take responsibility for my grades. In the triathlon was the same, I didn’t want to cheat, where 70% of the athletes did cheat. I honestly rather finish last than cheat, again I had a reason why I was doing those races. Physical pain helps with emotional pain.
  7. Now 2 triathletes have a son with muscle weakness, how ironically beautiful this is? I mean, who better than 2 triathletes, to parent a kid like Luke?

For me being a Dad is accepting a Soul that is coming, and that soul is coming for spiritual growth, meaning we are all perfectly imperfect and life is a challenging school. Therefore, the way I see it is I got the son that I need for my spiritual growth and Luke have the parents that will help his spiritual growth, same thing with my daughter that is coming soon (we are at 32 weeks today). My biggest fear in the NICU was how I was going to teach Luke about acceptance, if I haven’t accepted myself. Meaning, I dealt with depression for a reason, and now it was time to heal.

Punkaste,

Rirou

Unfashion recipes

A big part of the rock-it-ology philosophy is nutrition. Rirou loves to cook and create simple homemade recipes. Please check it out the some of the old recipes and today there is a new one, the fried pizza.

For a limited time the Punk Rule “eat like you give a f*ck” is free in the holy book. Check it out the nutrition plan and some of the recipes in the bottoms down below.

Punkaste,

Rirou

The holy book

After Rirou’s walk through the COVID-420, a 40 day introspection Rirou finally finish writing the Rock-it-ology holy book. The way this new faith works is simple, everything from the heart is free. Rirou only charges the things he paid to learn, quite simple. Therefore, the holy book (e-book) is free, except the diet (last part).

ROCK-IT-OLGY schedule:

Monday: A case of the Monday’s interview.

Tuesday: Star Punks Blog post.

Wednesday: English YouTube video from comedy to music.

Thursday off

Friday: Star Punks Blog post.

Saturday: Off

Sunday: Portuguese YouTube video.

Today is Wednesday so check out today’s video!

Punkaste,

Rirou

Day 37 of 40 – Guess who is back?

Not is not Neo, Morpheus or Jesus, is just the return of the Punk. Rirou indeed wanted to share his story and do life coaching, he got certified and all. However, Rirou as a master punk wanted to do his way, and his way has always been quite different after all Rirou is different; and it’s ok to be different. So, Rirou simply said “I gonna be the opposite of every life coach out there”.

Life is about attitude, and the only magical formula is to follow your heart. So, Rirou never understood how many people claimed to have a magical formula if the only formula is to follow your heart and everyone is different. Anything other than following your heart is simply a formula for disaster, and Rirou knows because he tried. He tried so many times to fit in a box, but it just did not work.

Rirou got a lot of baggage (depression) by trying to fit in the box, since now is time to heal he came with a plan that would combine his inner child dreams and his adult dreams. If everybody wants to rule the world, Rirou wanted to Punk the world, so he created “The not so fashion show” where he could spread his wisdom.

PUNK THE WORLD

Rirou’s called his coaching method the art and science of life, that was actually the name of his last presentation. The science was simple, pure math and the art is from the heart and his art is what made the difference between him and other coaches. Rirou wanted to share his art, that many believed was an art to reinvent yourself, but the truth is that is the art of reconnecting with your soul. So, I present you the not so fashion show:

  • The blog is the story of Rirou’s life.
  • Life is a show, a show that includes the good, the bad and the ugly.
  • Life is all about attitude, feelings and dreams. Rirou’s attitude was always Punk attitude, something he called the art of not working (do what you love and you will never work a day in life).

Punk wisdom

Rirou wanted to heal himself and also share his wisdom so he applied his own coaching methodology to himself. A mixture of a kids dream and an adult dream. As a kid Rirou’s dream was to learn the guitar, and as an adult his dream was to coach for free and Punk (change) the world. He always believed if people follow their heart to world indeed would be different. He decided to share his wisdom in the following format:

  • The good: His jokes are pretty good and insightful.
  • The bad: His guitar playing. Is pretty bad now but since his started playing Rirou really started to love himself, and getting better is a matter of time. Just like he did with Ironman and he end up winning one.
  • The ugly: His singing is pretty bad, but also can get better (or not!). Either way is fun and is helpful. Is a metaphor of Rirou finding his voice.

The YouTube channel, Rirou the punk have three shows that consist in:

  1. Stand up comedy. In portuguese from now, but there is comedy in English on his blog, a satire from on the session “How not to be an asshole”.
  2. Midlife crisis TV with song covers, skateboarding and reality show.
  3. Talk show, but is still in the process, but in the blog there is the “case of the Mondays” interviews.

Now the final question is, why a religion? Well that is Rirou’s sin. He took it personally, but is also a dream to change the world. In order to do that we must go to the core of the issue, and Rirou believed that religion is the core of the issue, at least for him since in his matrix Religion is a big issue.

This project is runs on coffee, and if this inverted life coaching truly touches your heart you can buy Rirou a coffee (is not a donation). The message must truly touches your soul, meaning that you have been thunderstruck, to a point that you can see in your bank statement $6.66. Remember, what you do in this life echoes in the eternity. The project is run under the Go Luke Wygand Foundation INC a non profit organization, and when the cup over flows the profits are donated to Nemaline myopathy Research and mental health programs.

Rirou is either a genius or completly insane! Either way he will find out soon on later!

Feel Good,

Rirou

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