Day 12 of 40 – What if I told you is not a midlife crisis.

Rirou woke up that Tuesday March 24th, and he started the day with Yoga and coffee. This is favorite way to wake up, however is not always possible cause Rirou goes to sleep late. Rirou is just like a night owl and he feels empowered under the moon, but it was not always like. A few years back Rirou was a professional triathlete that woke up daily at 5 am, and now, well now it’s a completely different story. Yes, Rirou turns 40 this year but this is not a midlife crisis.

Yesterday was a big break through for Rirou, not only because he did not have a case of the Mondays after all this years, but because something clicked. Rirou was finally at the core of the issue.

Rirou have been wanting to talk about mental health for awhile, since he has been a health coach and an athlete for a long time and he have seen how little we talk about mental/spiritual health. We are all obsess with perfect body and how we look outside, but we almost don’t talk about how we look inside. Yeah, our feelings. Rirou was a good example, and he was punk enough to believe he could talk about it, actually write about it.

The interesting part is that writing for Rirou has always been his weakness. Just to have an idea Rirou always end up in summer class when it came to writing. English was a bit easier, but still. However, writing was the only way Rirou could speak from the heart and that was another life irony. Rirou did the same thing when he decided to became a professional triathlete. He was 24 years old 260 pounds and smoking 2 packs of cigarettes a day.

The important thing is that now it was different, Rirou was making real changes at the core of the issue, and that was not a midlife crisis. That was real healing, or like Rirou like to call a rebirth, and this quarantine was helping Riou work deeper inside out. After all being a punk is about attitude, and that was one thing Rirou was good at it, facing his demons.

Feel Good,


Day 6 of 40 – Three little birds

Rirou woke up that Tuesday March 17th, took the dog out before Luke woke up. The birds were singing, the air was lighter. He finally heard his wife and took social distancing to a whole new level, he started a social media distancing.He finally listened to her, she has been saying for months. So, he started a week off social media.

Rirou knew that he needed to change, taking a break from social media would help. Just that morning, he was able to listen to the birds like it was 1990, thanks to the corona virus there is almost no noise at streets. Rirou not only heard the birds but he was these three little birds chancing each other, and they almost hit Bolt (Rirou’s dog). He then decided to walk barefoot on the grass for grounding, and that helped. But listening to the birds singing was what made Rirou more centered. But the real changed needed to be from inside.

Rirou likes to walk his dog at night look the stars, because is quite and the stars give leaves Rirou in awe. However, that was the first time in awhile that he felt like that during a day walk. Something about those birds felt like something was about to change.

Rirou stopped to think about it, what he needed to change. After all he already changed so much, it’s like his wife got a new husband. Meaning, Rirou has change so much that family and close friends thinks that he have an ability to reinvent himself over and over again. That reality, is not like that. All this time, Rirou was just trying to feel comfortable in his own skin. Now, Rirou finally looked good naked, he was finally comfortable in his skin, he finally loved himself. But why was he still procrastinating?

That day Rirou did some yoga, and after all the activities were done, and a long meditation session. After that, Rirou sat outside under the moon with pen and paper. When he realized it was 1 am and he had written more in one day than in the entire year. And that felt good…

Feel Good,


Day 3 of 40 – A normal Saturday

Saturday march 14th Rirou woke up slow like he does every Saturday, with a small difference, his wife did not have to work that Saturday due to the Corona Virus. The rest was like a normal Saturday, however the definition of normal can go very far.

Rirou is a stay home Dad and Saturday is the first day off the week that he does not have to rush. So, Rirou usually have breakfast in bed with his son Luke, normally his favorite scramble eggs and bacon. Since both have a strong connection specially thru music the first part of the day starts with lots of music and laughs. The morning play list is a little smooth with a good mix of Sublime, Incubus, Toddler music and Luke’s favorites Insane in the brain, Jump around and thunderstruck.

Around 12 o’clock, yeah they really wake up slow on Saturday, they move to the play room. Life on planet earth can be pretty fast, well at least before COVID-19, after this pandemic might be different or not. Anyways, Luke goes to work, and as a kid his job is to play. Rirou goes to clean the house, witch is pretty much play time for Rirou. He puts the famous Looking good Naked punk playlist that consist in: The off spring, pennywise, Foo fighters, Rancid, Sex pistols, Social distortion and green day. Luke as a good little punk ask for the music loud while they play (click here for the playlist) During that period there is a lot of air guitar, air drums, the broom becomes a microphone and a guitar, cleaning bottle becomes weapons and there is a lot of ass shaking, and sometimes mooning. Yeah, Rirou became the king of mooning since 1997 when he skipped school to skateboard, and went by the school and told his friends to look at the window, and when they did Rirou moon the whole school on the top of the skateboard. No one has ever done that!

After cleaning the house Rirou usually shower and finally takes of the pajamas to go to the park. Since they were in quarantine going to the park was not possible, so Rirou made a dream come true: He shower and put back a new set of pajamas. For the first time he was able to use pajamas all day long. He was not going anywhere, no human contact besides family, and that was like a dream.

Around 4 o’clock was time for the second meal. Rirou usually eats a snack and a meal, except saturday’s where usually there are 2 meals and a cake. Usually Rirou start cooking after the park. Well, Rirou does not call it cooking, he called making love with food, kinda of creppy but Rirou believes food and house are sacred and must be made/organized with love.

By that time is 6 o’clock and Luke jump in the ipad for 90 minutes and Rirou and his with enjoy Curb your enthusiasm while Luke enjoy his cartoons. After that is time bath and bed time for Luke where they dance to Jah music. Rirou close the day performing Reiki on the family, and after that Rirou goes writting and play the guitar. Rirou sleeps late and he loves to write under the moon in his patio…. and that is a normal Saturday form them….Pretty peaceful day, and its always better when they are all together.

This is the music from Rirou weeding.

Feel Good,


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