YouTube: The good, the bad and the ugly

The other day I came across this video about a reaction to the most spoken medicine on the planet right now.  I watched out of curiosity, because the truth is there is nothing that will change my opinion about it since is based on intuition. And I won’t sell my soul, because in this world this is the only you can really lose is your soul. Meaning I won’t betray my intuition, because I have way too much proof that is the best way to live life.

Anyways, I still don’t know if he really got a reaction or not, but what I do know is that he got a lot of hate in the comments. Which made the video go viral hateful comments made the video go viral), and he is donating the profits of the video to charity, which is awesome. I didn’t read the comments on that video, I just watched and went straight to the second one where he tells about his reaction to haters. Apparently he got a lot of hate from the unvaccinated, which he claims, in the second video that their are uneducated based on how and what they wrote.

As I was watching the video a movie was passing by my mind, and kinda going back a few months ago, when I left Facebook for awhile. I left exactly becuase I got tired of the hateful comments because of my choice of being unvaccinated.  I lost friends becuase of this, and even got shamed by Pope Francis. I  made a video about it, but I took it down, because it felt like I was playing  victim. ( However I wrote in this blog about it). Then, I just said fuck it I don’t need that kind of energy, and left Facebook for awhile, best thing ever. Anyways, as I continue the video, another movie pass by my mind was when he said uneducated, which I am. I mean, I tried college 3 times and it’s not for me, and I am glad I guit. I guit because I knew it that going that route I would end up killing myself. Therefore I made the choice or should I say the foolish choice, per society views (what I heard throughout my life), of being an athlete.

My point is, peole you migh have a PhD, or a master degree, college and all the education in world and still not be wise. There are people in the world that do follow the dreams of their heart, their intuition and they are very connected to their soul. Even if they don’t look like the “perfect people”. Or they don’t look like the type of people that do that kinda of choice. Society loves judging a book by its covers.

Anyways, it feels like there are a few people affected by this medicine because I came across another video. And seems like they are  scared to talk, and that is a horrible feeling. I know for experience, and it’s a lonely dark place that I don’t wish for anyone. I believe in the weapon of choice, if those reactions are true, let’s hear their voice without judgment because Love and empathy starts from within.

Punkaste,

Darth Rirou

Big blue slime balls

Riding my favorite wheels again since 1992. Yeah, you read it right it’s been 29 years since I rode my favorite skateboarding wheel set. I was 12 the last time I owned a set, actually it was my brother’s set. Now that I started skateboarding again at the age of 40 I finally got another set. I love my big blue slime balls…

Music is El rock punkarena instrumental.

Punkaste,

Rirou

Chapter 6: as wicked

For years I believe I was doom for a life of surfering and pain. For real, was a feeling that I couldn’t enjoy life, and if I did I would be punished. Everything that gave me joy was going to be the end of the world. Like, everything was my fault. Heavy metal thought me that the easy way out, ending life, was not an option. 

Yes, it’s true, the feeling was that I was wicked. Like in my dreams is it was always there,  demons faces saying I couldn’t enjoy life. I didn’t know what those demons were until I picked up the guitar to play at 39 years old. Not only that, it only started to make sense on my 40th birthday! That’s when I realized I was battling my own existence.

At age of 39 is when I told my wife, I wanted to be the one who stays home with the kids and learn music. Not only because I didn’t want to work. I mean I don’t want to work, because the truth I can’t have a boss. I think from all the bosses that I had, there is a very few that I didn’t say fuck off. Me out there is a menace to society. It’s true, cause I have an attitude and I know how to use it, like the guy from office space.  The scene where the guy from office space,  says fuck off and got promoted actually happened in my life a few times. Or that scene with George Costanza, when he does everything the opposite way. Anyways,  I said I want to stay home and say fuck you to the Pope and rock. I also wanted to stay home mostly because Luke is as sensitive, if not more than I am, and now Amber. She is also super sensitive. 

Scaping hell (depression) is about learning about my sensitivity and using, and as I do that I want to teach my kids how to use their strength in life, after all my sensitivity is my strength. This way the story won’t repeat itself. The crazy thing is as a sensitive person I became very angry inside due to not exploring my sensitivity,  and swallowing my feelings. Didn’t look like I was an angry person because like the movie Anger Management he says there are 2 kinds of people: the one who explodes and the one who listened quietly day after day. Well, I am/was the one who listened day after day. Felt like I was grounded for 33 years.

Hell and fire was spawned to be released and that’s when the other day I made the video of saying fuck you to the Pope. As I released all this anger in form of art I noticed that things actually started to workout in my life, and the paranoia is gone. Things are no longer heavy and the energy is flowing. Not only that, by doing this, it creates a positive effect in the people around me, my family. Maybe not the devoted catholics since my story make them uncomfortable, but it’s what they say, life begins at the end of the confort zone.

Now I planned to release my first kids song in portuguese this week, however since we are moving (we got a house, see how choosing love/joy things workout?), I decided to wait and record the video in the new house. I believe this will have a much deeper meaning. Because the reality is, on January 20th,  Saint Sebastian day the Padron of my hometown (Rio de Janeiro,  Brasil) we bought our first home. That day was when the world turned around for me, that day was the day I realized I was not doomed, and I finally found my place under the sun. Yeah, I escaped hell, and it felt like a slapt in the face of destiny. Well, maybe not a slapt, but more like a mooning to destiny. I always loved mooning LOL. 

Punkaste,

Rirou

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